从不知道，原来一个人的圣诞是那么的寂寞。
糊里糊涂地一个人过了冬至，
糊里糊涂地一个人过圣诞前夕，
明天也是一个人过了吧？

像是从恶梦惊醒一样，
一个人的时候就会想的特别多，
我为什么会在这里？
我为什么会选这科？
我怎么把自己逼到这个地步？
这不是我想要得啊！

每一年的期待，
每一年的失望，
一直都很憧憬过个特别的圣诞，
特别的情人节，
特别的新年，
特别的每一天。
这是个遥不可及的梦吗？

坚强在特别时节挥不起作用，
人在他乡只会把情况弄更糟，
想要开心地过却提不起劲来，
电脑播着节奏轻快的圣诞歌，
我强忍着在眼里累积的泪水，
再次欺骗自己下一年会更好。

祝大家圣诞快乐。

无意间读到某熟人的BLOG
一字一句都在形容对他女友的思念
我是说性方面。

我记得我在读的时候脸全程是这样的
不知要说他恶心还是说我保守
或许他不知道我在读
可是我还是觉得这很不妥当

他们所有的姿势，招数都写了出来，
害我脑海里出现了挥之不去的画面，
我要是不认识他女友还好
可是blog旁边就放着他和女友的合照。

我很同情那女的，
不是因为我鄙视她，
只是那男的是这里有名的花花公子，
所以我难免不看好这段恋情。

万一分手了怎么办？
那女的要如何见人？
万一别人把这一段往事告诉她下个恋人怎么办？

虽然这一切都与我无关，
但难免让我想了一下，
男人，
是不是每个都那么不可靠？

'自闭中'
这是为了让我专心读书而贴在门外的纸条。
不贴还好，
贴了反而来了更多访客。
（=。=）"


书，
还是不读算了。

After a few weeks of consistent biting of my own gums, I finally decided to remove 1 of my wisdom tooth. Especially when the dentist said persistant biting my gums can cause cancer formation =.="

Now my face swelled up like shit. Still sexy though wtf. I feel like I had botox injection now cause my face can't move much at all. My lips are sexy too haha!

Thanks Yeeva for accompanying me! They said after extraction you'll feel tired & dizzy because of the excessive blood loss. Can someone please explain to me why am I feeling super hyper now?

Rules: Do this tag and answer all the questions in your own blog. Delete one question from all the questions and add one of your own questions, make sure it is 20 questions. Tag 8 persons.


Questions:

1. What was your dream when you were a small kid?
To live in a castle with my hamsap.. oops.. i mean handsome prince


2. What is the happiest thing in your whole life?
when i m free of worries & everything is going on smoothly


3. What do you wish to have now?
to go back malaysia asap


4. How should the world be seen?
in the eyes of an experienced person


5. What have you realized recently?
that i've totally lost myself & my aim of life


6. Do you think a day which consist of 24 hours is enough for you?
not enough for holiday, too much for lecture days


7. When you have something which you are unhappy about, what will you do?
talk to someone I can trust & try to put it all behind me


8. What are you afraid of the most?
not being able to love


9. Do you think that you feel helpless, or useless sometimes?
most of the time


10. When you meet someone that you like, will you profess or hide your feeling?
if we dunno each other that well i might pretend i dont really care about him. if we're close enough i might give some hints here & there.


11. List out 3 kind of people you hate the most.
bossy, selfcentered, arrogant


12. What is loneliness?
something that everyone think I am but me myself are totally ok with it


13. Are you satisfied with your life now?
not really


14. When was the most recent time you felt touched?
XH agreed to fry luncheon meat & eat with me yesterday night for supper.. Hahahahhaha


15. Where is the place that you visited and you felt the most beautiful?
Japan


16. Use 5 words to describe who you are.
too-independent, absent-minded, a-lil-too-naive-at-times, punctual, loyal


17. If you have one wish that'll come true, what is it?
that justice & happiness belongs to everyone


18. Do you have anything to worry or to be scared about recently?
Passing second year.


19. If the World is going to end, what will you do?
fly to japan, & find my hubby


20. Your thoughts of the moment?
Hsiao Jing Teng damn cute


8 Persons that I'll tag. If you've already done it, it's fine.
Ji JI
JIa ZHu
tong tong
jamie
shirley
who else read this blog?? Fill urself in.

YAY!!!!! I TOTALLY GAVE UP ON MY TESTS & ITS OVER!!

Wahahaha.. The next exam is on Jan. So let it be. Now I shall indulge myself in Hsiao Jing Teng's angelic voice. 此曲只应天上有, now I know what it meant.

I self claim that tomorrow is the start of my christmas holiday! I'm not going to class tomorrow, I shall just stay back & do whatever I want. Since my attendance was already bad enough, I have to pay Rs 1500 in order to take the final exams.

Maybe I will have surgical removal of all my wisdom teeth tomorrow. Haha. Wisdom teeth is 1 creation I don't understand about human body, together with armpit hair too.

Bah.

Ayumi on Domoto Kyudai

OMG.. This episode made me laugh until I was spraying food particles on my desk wtf.

1 part was super funny. In the infamous programme 'Domoto Ichimon Ittou (or 1 Question 1 Answer), Ayumi was asked a question:

'If you are stucked in a deserted island with the members of Domoto Band (those sitting behind Kinki & Ayumi), who do you think will...
i) Be the bravest & volunteer to hunt for food?
Ayumi: Kyoko Fukada.  (You have to watch it to know why.Secretly, I agree with her too haha)

ii)be the self nominated leader who doesn't know anything about everything?
(Everyone eyeing Koichi)
Ayumi: Koichi..LOL

iii) be least likely to survive at that environment?
Ayumi: Takami san. ( Even Takami thinks this question is made for him haha)

This part is super funny you just have to watch it.


Then the infamous drawing competition between Koichi & Ayumi. Everyone had to draw 'Santa CLaus & his Reindeer'. And it was funny the way Koichi criticised everyone's drawing while his is the ****** <--- watch it & you'll know wat word to fit here LOL.

Tom san suggested both Ayumi & Koichi shud publish an album of their drawings & the book title would be 'What Do You Think This Is.' LOL

What I think about in my past life.



rice??????? LOL I was so man in my past life..





What I think about this life.



林家敏の脳内






How is my relationship with my hubby.





what the???  Is it me or it does look like a patient doctor relationship? T.T

FINALLY WEEKEND!!!! FINALLY HAVE ONE DAY BREAK!! U WANT MY KIT KAT?

My god, this is the longest week ever. Next week is gonna be the next longest week ever.

Having practical test practically whole week. I must say that my temper is going bad due to lack of beauty sleep each day. I know, I'm like a kid who merajuk when I don't get enough sleep or didn't eat the food I want or didn't get the toy I wanted. Every night I stayed up till 2 am to study and woke up 6 am to study again. 4 hours sleep plus 2 hour afternoon nap, half of what I get usually =.="

I was quite lucky that the lecturers didn't ask me much questions during our oral exams maybe because they gave up on me wtf.

Anyway, I didn't really stayed up to study so it's quite padan muka for me to be cranky. You see, I watched a lot of shows like Gossip Girl, Heroes (thank god these shows have ended their current seasons), America's Next Top Model, Grey's Anatomy, Private Practice, 还珠格格，开运万事通，Desperate Housewives, & alot more lar. And to make things worse, I fell in love with 萧敬腾 just right before my exams thanks to my curiousity to check out the Golden Horse Award clips. OMG he's damn cute! Did I ever mention my heart can't take black suits? And his voice OMGG.

Being a proffesional stalker I was actually studying him for my Microbiology, Pathology, Pharmacology tests. Love his voice man. I prefer him over Yang Zhong Wei coz he can sing my favourite English songs like It's my life & I don't wanna miss a thing. And his interviews are damn funny. He practically doesn't talk at all so the hosts have to ask him a lot of questions to get the answer to the question they first ask. Haha. I keep relating him to my younger sis coz they have the same b'day. Haha. So cute & funny!! This is the first time ever I watched a talk show looking forward to his singing performance. Usually when the guests starts singing I will take a toilet break or wash dishes wtf.

Anyway before I turn this place to another one of his fan blogs, let's just change the topic.


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Or maybe I should just go back to watching his performance.

I've fallen head over heels for another Aries!

I'm so sick.
I'm sick of my life.
I'm sick of India.
I'm sick of having tests.
I'm sick of talking to people.
I'm sick of regretting my choice.
I'm sick of missing civilisation.
I'm sick of being so clueless about my life.
I'm sick of missing food just because I'm stuck with eating food I cooked myself.
I'm sick of missing Malaysia just because I wanna sit in an air conditioned car.
I'm sick of missing Malaysia just because I wanna shop in a decent shopping mall with air conditioner.
I'm sick of missing home just because I wanna sleep in air conditioned room.
I'm sick of myself being so obssesed about air conditioner.

I'm sick in the head.